First day of the rest of my life

Wednesday for all accounts looks like a regular day for most people. And for me it will be a regular day too. I won't do anything out of the ordinary in honor of September 12th. Though that date will, for at least a while, means something to me. As it was on the night of September 12th that my then husband told me he wasn't happy and didn't think he could be happy with me anymore.

Words can't even begin to explain how I felt that night or the days following. To say I was crushed is an understatement. It was as though someone had died.

I wish more than anything I could tell myself a year ago you're going to be fine. You're going to be better than fine, you're going to be amazing and it might just be the best thing that could have happened to you. Of course, me a year ago would have never believed it. And what I have gone through over the past 12 months has gotten me to the happy place that I'm in now so I shouldn't have wished it had gone any differently.

Once the denial had finally ended and I realized there was nothing left to fight for it was time to try to move on. Sadly I wasted a few months thinking something could and would change in his head. I distinctly remember a night shortly after my birthday when I realized I didn't love him anymore. The revelation left me with a new since of freedom and excitement I hadn't felt in years. Hindsight is twenty-twenty. Had our relationship and marriage really been good, I would have always felt that bit of excitement and happiness all along. Lesson learned!

While there have been a few days of note throughout the past year, September 12th was the beginning of it all.

Having had a year to reflect on things, I don't think I would change a day of it. Sure I could have cried a few less tears. Or asked him to leave sooner than he did. Or done a million other things differently. But I wouldn't be where I am now had things been different. And I LOVE where I am today! I am happier than I have been in a very long time. I'm healthier and stronger than I've ever been in my life. I have a fantastic group of ladies that I adore. And I am having a lot of fun trying new things and just enjoying the ride!

Life is grand!